"I came home from a big tour once that had gone really well, all the shows were great and more and more signs were telling me to do more music. Within a few days of being home and getting back to my day job as a gardener, everything I had kept breaking down. Truck, tools, house, you name it, it was breaking. I immediately longed for being back on the road where your only worry is gas in the tank and arriving on time. It's a feeling shared by many artists in many fields, but hunger for simplicity is a great motivator."
-JL
lyrics
I keep falling behind, and all these things keep piling up. Everything I need is broken down, and my ambition to stay inside is in conflict with the emptiness of my bank account. It keeps me lying awake wondering if I'll be worried about this forever, but when sleep comes, and it always comes,
I will rest easy knowing the things that seem untouchable from above seem so insignificant from the ground. The bottom of the barrel looks better every day. I can burn my name into the wood along with all the rest, and just take everything for what it is worth at the time.
So when I say to myself, "this is all that I can take" that's when I say to myself, "this is what you asked for, aren't you happy if you can eat till you are full and never ask for more." Well, maybe life just don't work that way but I will keep on trying the same, because it feels more like living and not just racing to find a grave.
We gather in the darkest places we find, because our own light shines strong enough. The hungry of the heart, the cursed and lonely poor. To burn your name into the street and watch it fade away.
To thank everyone for just being here, for a time. If I get the chance I will thank all of you for your patronage, come again.
credits
from Long Winter,
released March 1, 2015
Jesse LeBourdais - Guitar, Vocals
Elliot Langford - Bass
Dave Leslie - Mandolin
Alison Soldink - Vocals