"Last year, I undertook a job renovating an old 1930's house that we were going to move into afterwards. It was a lot of work and I am happy to be still living in the place I worked so hard for, but during that time, I couldn't leave town for shows or really do anything other than work. So the moment I finished, I had to leave town as fast as I could. The dust was barely settled and I had to shake it off. But it is not the most flattering feeling for people you are close with to say how bad you want to leave and I hope they don't take it personally." - JL
lyrics
It's been two months, and I ain't heard from you at all. Not so much as a word. I just tend to worry when I'm left to my own, my mind likes to wander. It's been three months since I've been outside city lines, and I have kept my days full. But the truth is, I have grown comfortable hiding from the light, in the safety that is found behind a door.
So I'll take my penance any way you see fit, I deserve it and more, but I don't want to stay here, I just want to leave.
A lot of my friends are out on the road, doing what I said I would do and I'm here pounding nails and cutting things down, growing older by the hour. My days are filled with excuses and wastes of time that I call my work, and I could have been done weeks ago, this could have all been behind me. I'm the only one who holds me back.
So I'll take my penance any way you see fit, I deserve it and more, but I don't want to stay here, I just want to leave. We all take our chances wherever we go, and I won't let you down but I just can not stay here. I just can not stay.
I cut myself down to much for my own good; I actually start to believe the things I tell myself when I am at my darkest when I know in my heart it's not true. I just tend to worry, when I'm left to my own. So darling, when I am gone, know I won't be gone too long.
credits
from Long Winter,
released March 1, 2015
Jesse LeBourdais - Guitar, Vocals
Elliot Langford - Bass
Dave Leslie - Drums, Mandolin
Nate Pennell - Banjo, Vocals
Denise Cymbalist - Vocals