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I’ve put this off for too long. It’s what I do when I know I’m so far gone. But I can no longer entertain thoughts of being stronger; tonight I’m fuckin’ caving in. I forget what I should remember and I just don’t seem to care. I can’t count the times that I’ve abandoned those I love in favour of retreating inside myself.

I can not place where I know your face and I certainly don’t remember your name. But that is all on me, sometimes I can be quite distant and I let go of what I really should hold on to.

So what I do is I drink so much until the only thing I know for sure is the pounding in my head that is soon to come. If I smoke until my eyes go red to make myself feel better, then why I am surprised to find it always works. Is that just all I need or I am just filling up a hole that is constantly leaking from the bottom. With friends and songs and shrugged responsibilities that I have, and the good times that I place above my health.

I can not place where I know your face and I certainly don’t remember your name. But that is all on me, sometimes I can be quite distant and I let go of what I really should hold on to.

At the end of the night after the last songs have been played, I never forget the bartenders name. She tells everyone to leave and that’s when I take my seat with two glasses in front within my reach. But as the lights went up and I looked around you were nowhere to be found and there is not enough free drinks in this town to make me want to stay.

So I’m gone. I can not place where I know your face and I certainly don’t remember your name. But that is all on me, sometimes I can be quite distant and I let go of what I really should hold on to and I forget what I really should remember.

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from Grief Intensity Friendship, released July 10, 2017

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